I'm really sorry to hear about these issues, and I wish I could help you in some way at least.
If it's any consolation, I know you weren't confident at all in your ability to play Lulu in the CFUW game we played at last time, and I know there were some times you thought you screwed up-- but I really think you did a very good job. You're probably judging your abilities to play more harshly than other people, and while it's good to be critical of yourself, being too harsh can really just destroy your confidence. I don't think I can give you any good suggestions, and I think it's different for everyone how to deal with that. Personally, I'm one of those people who avoid getting involved in certain things due to lack of confidence, and the only way I can get over it is to jump in and to it anyway, because I know otherwise I just won't, ever. And for me, it works! But I don't know if it would for you or if it'd just make you much more anxious.
And I think especially with some of the characters you have, it's kind of normal to want to mess up their lives since... well, they're really good for messing up! That being said, I have no good suggestions on how to help you with that, unfortunately. But I'm always up for doing things, so if you ever think of something (I suck at planning, sadly :(), feel free to tell me! I can at least listen and give my opinion on what it seems best.
Personally I love threading with you, even if I can be a hassle to thread with sometimes (uuugh timezone :|a), so I hope this comment helped even if a bit! Remember the most important thing is to have fun, okay?
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If it's any consolation, I know you weren't confident at all in your ability to play Lulu in the CFUW game we played at last time, and I know there were some times you thought you screwed up-- but I really think you did a very good job. You're probably judging your abilities to play more harshly than other people, and while it's good to be critical of yourself, being too harsh can really just destroy your confidence. I don't think I can give you any good suggestions, and I think it's different for everyone how to deal with that. Personally, I'm one of those people who avoid getting involved in certain things due to lack of confidence, and the only way I can get over it is to jump in and to it anyway, because I know otherwise I just won't, ever. And for me, it works! But I don't know if it would for you or if it'd just make you much more anxious.
And I think especially with some of the characters you have, it's kind of normal to want to mess up their lives since... well, they're really good for messing up! That being said, I have no good suggestions on how to help you with that, unfortunately. But I'm always up for doing things, so if you ever think of something (I suck at planning, sadly :(), feel free to tell me! I can at least listen and give my opinion on what it seems best.
Personally I love threading with you, even if I can be a hassle to thread with sometimes (uuugh timezone :|a), so I hope this comment helped even if a bit! Remember the most important thing is to have fun, okay?