IC: Backdated to night of mega clusterfuck fight

[thekingsgambit]

[In one of the hospital beds, a confused ex-emperor is gradually coming to, blinking amid the poor lighting and grasping his side as he tries to sit up a little too fast. The skin around one underside of his jaw appears slightly swollen and darker than usual. Other than that, the only thing that stands out is the strained look of thought on his face as he tries to sort through the afternoon's events.]



((Note, with the exception of the Black Knights, threads are not occurring at the same time.))

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[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Drops the smile and sighs softly]

... Do you believe the future is pre-written, Kamui? That what happens here will have no impact on what happens in our own worlds?

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

The…future…

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Catches that tension immediately]

Ah, never mind... I was thinking out loud.

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

[shakes his head]

I think…what happens here would impact…our own worlds. But only if…we are able to remember it.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Nods and continues]

People sometimes recall once they return, but there is no way of knowing what they remember back in their original world...

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

…

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Shakes head]

I suppose it would not hurt to hope for otherwise though.

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

But if we can't remember about here once we go back… At least there isn't the pain of missing someone we'll never see again.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

Everyone loses people important to them, Kamui; life cannot be predicted. Would you rather lose memories of those people entirely, even the good ones, if it meant the bad parts would go away?

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

[flinches]

That's… That's not fair.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

It never is. But if life were easy, we would not get the same experience from it. It is the difference between being alive and living.

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

…

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Laughs in his humorless way.]

It was something I used to tell myself as a child. It has always been that way for me.

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

…Oh.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

You disagree?

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

N-no, I just…never really thought of it. Like that.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

Not many do, I have found, especially those who have difficulty appreciating life because of what it has put them through.

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

[this is a slightly guilty look away]

I…see.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Is your guilty contagious?}

... I should have warned you that I am a terrible patient.

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

E-eh?? No, no, it's… I…

Lelouch didn't do anything wrong.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Leans back.]

It is true nonetheless. I have never liked hospitals.

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

…I can understand that.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Glances at but doesn't pursue the topic]

Still, I doubt you will be that easily driven away.

[emocalypse.livejournal.com]

[headshake]

I don't want to go.

[thekingsgambit.livejournal.com]

[Reaches over to gently touch his hair]

I will try harder not to worry you in the future.